Goals

I have been doing a lot of thinking and with everything that has happened recently I don't like my life how it is. I am extremely unhappy and I realize that it is all my fault. I'm almost 40, I just became a grandmother and less than a year ago I lost a baby of my own. I have been sick and in pain. I don't want to do this anymore. I want more for my life and for my kids and now grandson.
The best way to do this is to set goals and make plans to attain them. I am going to change my life and take everyone I love with me or they can go some where else. I am also taking everyone who has ever read my blogs or followed me on social media with me. I am going to become an over sharing nightmare in hopes that my journey will help others like me who have been through the ringer and thought they would be stuck in shit forever.

Rage

I have been so angry for so long. This fire, rage burning inside of me needs to be extinguished. It is not who I am. How can I say that I truly forgive if I am still angry? I don't think I can. The only thing this anger is doing is hurting me and the people I love. They see me hurting and I get snappy and that is not good for them. This year I am going to work on letting go of that anger so that I can get back to the trusting, kind and forgiving person that I really am.